It's a blog post again after months? Years?
This is my first post in 2021, and it's already June everyone!
Long short story, I got a new job in October 2020, and it has been 7-8 months since I started working as an Inside Sales. It's quite a roller coaster ride, I think? Hm not sure, but I am trying to survive.
Sooo many things has been passed by actually, I still don't know how to start but first of all I'm very very grateful that I'm healthy, physically and mentally. It's not easy to cope up with this crazy situation and it has been more than a year since it started. It truly is an experience of a lifetime. How I hit the rock bottom and tried to get up on my own. How I literally swallowing into my own sadness, how I officially started my K-pop journey (hmm actually I've already following K-pop since then, but just started stanning a group last year), how I setting goals for my own self, and how I finally realized that life is not a question mark.
Why life is not a question mark?
You are not living your life to fulfill your own desire and curiosity. Life is more than just questioning and searching every thing that happen along the way. Just imagine how tiring it will be if you just say "how" and "why", I've been there... Like why is it me, why always me, how is it possible, how is it happen to me. The point is I never get the answer of every thing I ever questioned.
Believe me, being a self centric is not healthy, and I'm not happy. I always think first rather than just live in the moment and enjoy it. But, one lesson that I really should take the note on is, when I think myself or my life is at its best, is the moment when I should be prepared something will happen, suddenly and drastically. No that I insecure everytime, but it's more like to become aware that comfortable is a trap.
I feel like I should write a long ass blog post to this, but seems like the writer block always struck me hard. At least back at writing is gooddd. My thing after painting hehe.
And, I'm still thinking to record a podcast... So that I can talk freely in a structural form. I hope that my first podcast will really be released this month haha.
See you later self!
Jakarta, 4 June 2021
10.14 PM
