and that's it.
i do feel sometimes, i don't deserve my people.
but you know what? i keep on being grateful for who they are,
for staying with me. see all my colors and shape, accept my flaws.
i keep my circle small, but doesn't mean i don't have friends.
i love my work mate, i love the healthy boundaries.
i love my friends after all.
wouldn't it be too cliche if i also say that i'm not feeling lonely?
I DO TOO.
that feels hit me hard, but that's it. it's just life.
we do have our own life. even my best bestfriend.
they do have life and cannot be here all the time.
in the end, we only have ourselves indeed.
i'm grateful that i made a good choice earlier this year.
that phase helps me a lot to manage my own sanity.
that phase, helping me a lot to really regulate my emotions.
even though it has been a roller coaster ride these past months,
because i must admit i'm craving for being loved my the opposite gender...
it's been quite a ride.
dear self,
thank you, you've been doing really really well lately.
mon, 18 sep 2023
