I don't know why but this week has been mentally and physically drained. Although yes, I'm working from home, but it is what it is right? Yesterday is the peak moment when I was having my breakdown, like I can't hold it anymore...
The peak is coming after the lunch meeting and I just back at my task, then this customer came. I was wrong in the first place because I cannot control my emotion and I was breaking bad until this customer come and I was having a breakdown after the phone call ended.
So there's a background story when the day after I just heard that my teammate is resigning. It's not the actual resign in the usual term, but could be translated as terminated. I know that I don't have a good control when there's a sudden change in my surroundings, and this time it got me like... bugging? It's just so fast and I'm a little frightened actually. I also think that I need some help, so I planned to register for a consultation. Yet the moment I write this, I call it off. I think not yet, I'll get help if it's literally worsen and I can't help.
By opening this blog, I'm feeling better already. This is also my footprint so that I can look back in the future, to the things I've been going through...
So that's it? I just hope it's not getting worse. By NCT2021 announced, I feel better already. My boys are coming back 😊💚
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